I have to say that I've been thinking to stop and leave over and over again. I've read some journals and for that sole reason appears to be the strongest influence for me to stop. From some point of views I just need to be honest, I decide to and just let it all out no matter how the consequences will be.
I 'm fully aware that this might be about me being emotionally sensitive and childish in some extents, but I don't care anymore.
I have to be honest that I was quite disappointed with my fave pairing group in DA. I just regret the effect it has on me.
I love everything about Naruto, and I always pick one pairing in most of my fave animes/mangas. As for Naruto I pick NaruSaku for some reasons I've written here back then. I've dedicated most of my time drawing mostly them, especially doujinshis aside from my other pairing such as Ichiruki.
I don't know why but those journals I've read seemed to be succeeded in getting on my nerve. I know that appreciation came from respect and love, not because you ask for it. But then again I have to tell the truth that the one who has the great idea of interviewing such artists, need to consider something ' feeling'.
It has made me lost all the interest to draw NaruSaku in form of art and doujin, moreover after the interview of the newbie rather than those long time artist such as 'Innera'.I've been thinking not to join anymore pairing group nor breaking my sweat just to please other but myself satisfaction has to come as the 1st priority. Maybe I'm just too proud of my own art, well, I am cause I made it all with my heart.
I think I need to tell my friend about me cannot fulfill the promise to do the collab after all.
Come to hate me after reading this article? be my guess, its all up to you. I don't care.
As for Ichiruki, I don't know yet what to do.(insert Pic: my drawing of 2years ago that I took off from DA)
